Surviving a phantom menace.

It has been a week now. My first encounter with a pandemic. At first, it was my daughter, then my two other kids. Next was my wife, then, as suspected, it was me. It was a flu. The body invaded by a germ that mutated and mutilates. Isn't that nuts? Life is truly fragile. One minute you're healthy as a horse. The next minute minute you're a rag doll hanging on to dear life.

I didn't have it that bad. I was more in fear of losing my loved ones. A single weekend swallowed almost two weeks of my monthly earnings. I would give all I have to make sure that my kids we're safe. But think about those without enough, how would they make through a situation like this. The powers that be has taken measures, they say. Uncertain is whether those measures are taken for the benefit of the masses or of the few. If the latter, than our humanity has stayed where it was 5,000 years ago.

In this time of dire predicament, I got to know friends and acquaintances. It made me sad and happy at the same time. It changed me. It made me lost some of my youthful naivete, which makes me, me. Now I'm wiser yet at the same time meaner. It is true, ignorance is bliss. Till next time.

Coming From The Depth Of A Dark Place

Its sucks to be me at this moment....God...damn me to hell!!! In it i shall dwell, for not doing so well, at taking care of those dearest to my cell... Life promised me flowers and yet gave me shit, i was suppose to share them but now i share all the dirt and grit, I trusted those who marched with me in war, but it is by their knife that I now bleed like a whore... Tomorrow is another day...

I have no picture to put up with this post. Why? It's because you wouldn't like the picture that comes with the way I'm feeling at the moment. Life isn't always a bed of roses but it sure is a cushion of thorns.

I'll see you all soon.

I was just asked about my blog....

I was asked about my blog and yes, i admit, that i haven't been updating much. Being my 3rd attempt at blogging, I'm committing a cardinal sin. I wish I had the time to update but I really, really, really have been busy with my work.

Ok, so what am I going to talk about this week? As I've always been playing it safe, today, I'm gonna be typing words that might scrape the skin of certain parties. I've been writing for 3 years now and I've been going through all types of hurdles. Some have made me think about my career choice, some have made me feel guilt beyond humanity and some just pretty much keeps me the fuck going. I write what I feel needs to be written. If what I write just fills the gap of financial gain, then I'm not doing a good job. Fortunately, my current team allows me to experiment with various type of communication in my writing. Shit...I'm venting...I'm venting cause what I believe in has come true. Previously, I was paired with people who are in the right path but work towards the benefit of the few. This time I'm paired with a team that wants to change the path altogether and create a highway, a highway for the masses...thats is the difference! May our choices be divine and our actions guided...thats all I can say.

I don't believe anymore, I know. I know and it is imprinted that we are all working towards something that will change the way we percieve the world now. All I can say is that those who are stuck to the ways of the pass, will, sadly enough, experience becoming obsolete. Totality is key and change is inevitable.

My professional acting debut...Wakakaka... Serious joke!

Adam Cinta Siapa. Thats the title of the 8 episode series that had me as a supporting actor to Hasnul Rahmat. Thanks to director Mamat Khalid (Zombie Kampung Pisang, Kala Malam Bulan Mengambang, Rock... to name a few of his films), who thought of me when brainstorming on who to cast for the script. I really appreciate the trust he gave me to play such a fun character.

The story is about Adam (Hasnul Rahmat), a sound engineer, who is at a stage where companionship becomes a big issue. His parents want him to get married but he is unsure about who he has feelings for. Being a music lover with a sensitive and artistic soul, Adam wants to make sure that he marries for the right reasons. It doesn't help that his crazy, happy-go-lucky, carefree brother, Basher, married for the wrong reaons and is currently a divorcee who wants his ex-wife back.

Basher was adopted by Adam's family and is lost in the world of identities. He knows of his status and wants to know where he is from, genuinely. He hopes that his search for his father may give him an insight as to why he loves the world of Rock and Roll so much. During Basher's early days, he got married to a girl named Eva, whom he met at a shopping complex. In the spark of romance, Basher asks for the girl in marriage and surprisingly, she accepts. However, Basher never changed his rocking ways. Eva had to live with his immature, life loving, carefree soul that couldn't focus on being a married man. Due to this, their marriage ended.

The series is set to be released in Singapore's Suria channel and will play in Astro towards the 4th quarter of 2009. The cast includes Hasnul Rahmat, Zakizamani Osman, Rilla Melati (Singapore), Nurul Aini (Singapore), Maria Farida, Diana Rafar, Omar Abdullah, Rahimah Rahim, Eva (Singapore), Suhaila Salam (Singapore), Sharifah Hood (Singapore), Pekin Ibrahim and special appearences by Awie Wings, Imuda, Aziz M. Osman and also Jaafar Onn.

Waits for updates!!

Of Bloggers Blogging Bloggers & Braving Through Life's Blunders

Hi All. Once again out of shere boredom I'm posting another blog. Just completed my day's tasks of emails, network calls and media updates from friends, colleagues and acquaintances. I usually leave the family stuff for the night shift, just before I start writing again. Above is a fellow blogger who is currently teaching a lot about blogging. I introduced her to a place where they have a 1 for 1 offer on steaks on Mondays. I love the place because they have a 1 for 1 offers on beverages on Tuesdays.

People and food. It is one of the fundamental purposes of living. Not confined to just humans, everything consumes everything at one point or another. Plants consume sunlight to live. Animals consume other animals to live. We live on one another yet we in order to survive, we have to destroy each other. Ironic! Reverse Symbiosis!

Food brings people together, explains their backgrounds and cultural influences, tells us of people's preferrence and much much more. Thats why I love food.... And i guess thats why food loves me! (Audience go "Awww..." hahaha)

So next time you have food with your friends and family. Have a long hard look at it. Savor the tastes and try to find the connection between the food and the people that consume it. You'll be surprised to taste what might've or could've bite you in the ass!!

Till next time! Take Care & Be Safe!

A Reason To Celebrate!

This may sound pathetic to some but I gotta do it. I got my first blog follower today. She's a great person with a very bubbly personality. Unfortunately, I haven't had a chance to rope her in into any of my projects yet. Am working on it! I would like to thak her for her efforts. If this blog should in anyway turn into this multi million dollar making blog site, then.. I hereby proclaim that MIN LI of "MIN LI and ALL THINGS ELSE" blog, was my first blog follower!

It took me awhile to muster the courage to tell people I have a blog. I guess I had this preconceived idea that people wanted to see intelligent articles as opposed to the ramblings of a struggling writer. I was wrong, just as I have written in my previous post, different writers comes with different styles. I guess I didn't swallow my own pill.

Today was a fun day with family and friends. I've been so busy with writing scripts that I hadn't the chance to play PS2 games with my boy and talk about boys with my girls. The DAD me kicked in today. Had lunch with my in laws. Got into a fight with my better half about me over partying last nite and made up (vavoom!). Spent time talking to people I trust and talked about future endevors. Today.... has been a pretty wonderful day indeed. Pleasant and without the superficial hype of most days.

Writing for a living...

Thats what I do. I write for a living. I'm taking small baby steps by starting with stuff i have control over like small articles like this one and of course my favourite are scripts.

My current adventure has me paired up with one of Malaysia's reknowned directors. Everyone has a different way of writing that makes for their distinct style of expression. Some rationalise, some define, some describe and some explore. Many just write. I'm still finding my way. All my influences have helped me this far but i feel have not made me original. I hope that i may find that originality.

That comes when words just flow unto the fingers and the arrangement is unplanned. That is, by my definition, original.

From one window to the next.

The production finally ended. I came back from Singapore and was heading to the other production. At this point, I'm exhausted. Not because of the job but because of resolution. The definition between 2 people aren't always looked from the same angle. Fortunately, the other team had people who understood my concerns. I am not about to be pitted against somebody I trust. We have sat through the project together and I know that he'll do the best he can for the project. I have done mine. As far as I'm concerned, if they want a fight, then they would have to fight it themselves. Its not worth it for me.

As sad as that story may seem. Another window opened and I found some cool projects to work on. More on that later in the week....

Warghahahaha... wohooo!

Tis the third week of shoot! Dang! It has been a blast. I am learning so much and experiencing life to the fullest. WTF? Some have told me that this path will carry me no where and yet I have sustained. Maybe, they have not ventured forth. So this unfimiliar territory is much like Maxis territory. Celcom territory is more my style. Semua area dapat!!! My wife wants a massage and I have given her the time and finanes to do so. Actually, she got her own finances. I'm just tumpang sekaki. If u don't know what that means... u need more malay friends. Shit... u guys know what "tiu na seng" means right???!!! Anyways, after doing the wild thang and having wine, i have seriously developed a serious case of amnesia! Fuck! I need to sleep but i can't. The damn keyboard beckons my name. Basher... Basher... I'm going "F*CK YOU!!".. i wanna sleep. My brains blabber. My soul rants for no reason. I submit myself... The calmness slowly comes...

Seasons change...Landscapes move...We adapt...

Hi All,

I know that this will the first time that I get people to read my blog. I guess it is kinda nerve wrecking when you know that people are gonna start looking into what you do in your life.

Not too long ago, I was involved in a movie project. Spent almost two years writing the script for a friend who I thought understood what he wanted out of his production. Traveled across oceans to find inspiration. I found it and the script was written. Although many had the chance to get at me through my writing. Many of whom I have grown to respect as they do have a lot of knowledge. Some just took my work and looked for faults in order to put their own ideology across. I guess this happens to everyone but I have to tell you, that when you write and people read your work....YOU MATURE FAST!

To all writers out there, especially script writers, I want to congratulate you to one of the most challenging jobs ever. I'm back to freelance writing yet again and I hope that this time I can muster up the courage to write more stuff for this year.

All The World's A Twitter

Wow! It has been awhile since my last post. Luckily nobody is reading (pathetic isn't it). Hahaha. Well I've looking at the cyber universe and kids now have a multitude of tools to work with when in comes to communication.

My current favorite is twitter. It feels as though I'm re-discovering SMS or texting all over again. But this is better, you can read your friends tweet while updating your own all in REAL TIME!!

Just in case anyone wants to follow or add my twitter, here it is.
@Hybridzaki